On And On We Go

N to bed early. It's only a little after 9. Headache. Stomache. We keep passing it back and forth. Now I wonder what to do with the rest of my evening. I already recorded some recipes that I found worthwhile. N's a tough critic so while I may try out 4 new recipes a week, only 1 will make it into the "yeah, that's good enough to make again" pile.

I'll find something to do with my evening.

On and on I'll go.

I finished the book Atonement today. Was glad to get to the last page which is unusual for me. The story, I found, wasn't very captivating and it was a tough read. I'll return it to the used book store in Sanford. I've finally learned the importance of giving away books that I really don't care about. Last year I would have found it heresy to sell a book even if I didn't like it.

Recycle. Reuse. On and on we go. Thru the next year.

Down 2 (or is it 4?) dress sizes this year. It's not something I usually talk about. I understand how easily successes can turn into failure. How life can become quickly unbalanced. That food/exercise habits can follow. Bought new jeans and received them this week. Haven't fit in that size since my freshman year in college. 7 years ago. Crazy.

I sought balance. I sought truth. I sought a reality I could live with. I sought happiness in spite of circumstances beyond my control. I learned the lessons. I learned so much about myself.

Balance is the key. On and on we go. Thru the next year.

No word yet about the application N submitted for a job. I'm trying to put positive vibes into the world. I'm trying to be upbeat. I'm trying to not worry about the future because I have no control beyond what I am capable of. We'll be ok.

On and on we go.

Journaling again. Praying again - to God, to Allah, to Mother earth (I have no idea to whom) - it makes me accountable for my actions. It put things in perspective. It makes me feel whole again. And the last year or so, I've really lost that part of me. It's good to be back to that feeling. It good to realize that there is more to me than day to day living. It's good to hold the belief that there is a world out there bigger than me. I hope so.

On and on we go.

May you, friends & family, find success, fullfillment, joy & peace in 2008.

On and on we go
thru the next year.